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I Got Diagnosed with Depression

2 months ago I got diagnosed with Seasonal Affective Disorder.

It’s a type of depression that causes significant changes in a person’s mentality and physical behavior in certain seasons.

I’ve suffered from this condition without knowing about it for about 4 years now. I always brushed it off thinking that I’m not depressed and it’s just a feeling I have to tough out.

How It Happened

In certain months of the year, I suddenly lose interest in everything that I love doing, I feel depressed and worthless. I’d experience drastic changes in my behavior such as oversleeping, overeating, and agitation.

I had opened up to some friends about what was happening but I didn't get clear answers.

"You're just wasting money if you will go to the psychologist." was the response I got from one of them.

Feeling helpless, I decided to suck it up and just try everything I could to not feel it.

Waking up every day was a drag. It feels like It's taking 10 times my usual energy just to do basic things and work. I was miserable.

After a few weeks, I began to recover and get back on my feet.

But after a few months, it comes back. It always comes back. I was stuck in a cycle I couldn't just ignore. It bothers me and I didn’t know how to deal with it.

That’s why I finally decided to see a therapist who gave me clarity on what I was experiencing.

What I Did

I made the effort to get treated and I learned more about myself.

Knowing about the enemy I was facing allowed me to deal with it better.

Here are some things that helped me in beating this disorder:

  • Exercise and movement

  • Light therapy or getting sunlight

  • Eating food with vitamin D

  • Sleeping early and waking up early

Anti-depressants can also be taken but only when prescribed. I personally prefer not to take them if the other remedies would work.

What I Realized

As time went by, I realized that the illness of people who are sick doesn’t define who they are.

Because each of us has a character. It’s not suffering that builds your character, it’s your mindset that translates into actions and turns into a consistent habit.

I don't know if it will come back again next year or a few months from now. All I know is that I will always do something to get better.

I’m sharing this because some people may be experiencing the same things and I want to share what I learned going through this journey.

May you always find the light at the end of the tunnel. 🔥

- Rem



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